Where will it go from here? I don't know

I'm finally going to see u.Im quite excited i must say for we have been waiting for this opportunity to arrive for so long.And it's finally here.But the sad thing is that im not able to tell this to anyone,not even a family member.None could ever understand this.U know there was a time in my life when i oh so wanted everyone to understand me...to reach out for me is more like it.But well at this point i don't care anymore.At least i have u blog.I tell u things that i could not tell to but strangers.Strangers from all four corners of the globe.Ironic isn't it?Sometimes u think u're close enough to a person but u actually know nothing about them.Well not that this is a top secret or anything like it.I just feel that this is my right as a person who belongs to a family to have her insights shared.What's a family for?

Anyway having my heartfelt poured out,i must say i still couldnt see where it's taking us from here.Of course i should expect the best in everything but i don't know.Everything is so uncertain.Where do we go from here? I don't know............

Bali,August 2010 (Part 1)

So finally here are the pictures.Took ages for me to do that...

Actually when i recall i really had a good time in Bali.That was the first time i ride a motorbike coz that's the only mean of transportation.Well actually there are taxis but of course on a tight budget i wont be riding on taxis all the time,plus they costed alot.I made new friends with interesting people.I got the chance to look on the inside of other people's everyday life(not on a busybody term),basically young adults from middle class families who are away from home due to work.I see the differences,i appreciate what i have.I know that there are still a lot of things that i don't know and that i have to learn.Learn to be more sensitive to my surroundings and learn to care for others.

Over all,I'm glad that i decided to go to Indonesia.Im grateful that i was given this opportunity.Not only that i got the chance to see these wonderful places that Allah created on this Earth but also meeting all the people along my journey,it couldn't have mean more to mean =)

p/s: i was really excited when "Eat,Pray,Love" was first aired on the cinema.I was like,hey i've been to Bali!

Nasi jinggo.It's a mixture of rice,fried noodles,come shredded chicken and spicy coconut paste.It's delicious.

This is the monument of this famous prince Ramayana(if im not mistaken)from the epic.It's a symbol of the city.As it is well-known Balinese are hindus.

U see idols everywhere in Bali.Just food for thought-i bet they are not God.

This one is an eagle,not a usual one but the one with a magic power.it saved Ramayana on its back.

I specially made this one big for reading purpose..

Idol again

This is a little girl playing a traditional musical instrument

This is some sort of offerings made to God during prayers like Buddhists do with oranges and other fruits.U practically see this everywhere in Bali-restaurants,roadsides,houses.Usually they are placed in front of the door right before the entrance

Syaki and Wawan

My first contact with temulawak was about 10 years ago when Nurul brought a bottle home.But it was not a drink,it was a facial cleanser.When i came here i discovered that u can actually drink it.It is a carbonated drink.It tasted sweet and had this distinctive smell that u can find with all types of herbal roots.Not really a fan of it though.

This is one of my favourites.It has tofu,long beans,cucumber,bean sprouts,cow's intestine(don't judge if u've never tried it before),rice cake,spicy groundnuts sauce and topped with crispy fried onions.This is what i like about Asian food.Each one of a single cuisine is unique to all of the senses-smell,taste,sight,touch.Unlike western food-they practically taste the same.If it's not sweet then it's salty.If it's not salty then it's oily.Rather boring i must say...

 And down here are pictures of Sanur beach.As everyone knows Bali offers the best beaches for surfing.Surfers from all over the world come here for the sole purpose of surfing.The beach has soft white sand and if u r like me who enjoys sunset u can simply sit on the bank of the cliff and enjoy the view.It was breathtaking!

My New Portable Infrared Sauna

Last Wednesday i finally got my parcel from ebay.Guess what?It's a portable infrared sauna! I've been waiting for it for like almost a month.Right after i collected it from the post office i unpacked and used it on the same day.It was really awesome.I sweat alot and i feel fresh and alive after the session.Now it's been 4 days since i used it the first time and i noticed my skin glows and all this small chickenskin-like dots i've been having on my arms have slowly disappeared but the best part of it is that i lost 1 kilo in a matter of 4 days.Amazing isn't it? =). This is like the best invention ever in the history of health&beauty revolution!I definitely love it.I feel worth spending every single cent on this elegant and modern device.

Front 

 See the picture up there?there's a small chair inside where i sit and enjoy the warmth covering my body.

Footpad

 That is the footpad.I put my feet on it and press the button,it will heat up.This is especially good for me coz i usually have cold feet,i dont know why so it increases my blood circulation in that area.

Sideview

An evening mode in Autumn

Headache,flu,sorrowful mode...wonder when will be the end of this ceaseless expanses of emptiness

Last autumn,probably will never see autumn again.

When will you come?

Water and Positivity

This morning I poured warm water inside my bottle.Then I rushed off to class.


I came back.It was really cold outside there.+4.But it’s autumn,not winter.Warmed up my room with this new adorable heater I bought.Checked my mails,checked fb,listened to a few songs.Then got thirsty.Grabbed the bottle inside my bag.Drank.Gosh it’s cold!!.Where has the warmth gone to?? One sec passed..Oh silly me!Of course it gets cold coz well according to Mr.Physics there will be heat transfer between 2 bodies in touch with one another.If one cold body touches another hot body it will absorb the heat from the latter.

It gets me into thinking bout + and – numbers I learnt in secondary school. I always wonder why when + numbers meet with – numbers it will always result in -?I guess that is why bad people needs to be punished coz if they didn’t get punished they’ll meet with a lot more positive people and results them into becoming bad too.

Isn’t nature always coincide with one another?

SOLO EN TI

Looking from a window above,
It's like a story of love,
Can You hear me??!!
Came from a long way back,
Moving closer to You
Want You near me!!

All i'd need is The Love You give,
All i'd need for another day,
And all i ever knew
ONLY YOU

Sometimes when i think of Your Name,
Well it's never a game!
And i need You,
Listen to The Words that You say,
It's getting pleasant to stay,
Coz i know You're there,

All i'd need is The Love You give,
All i'd need for another day,
And all i ever knew,
ONLY YOU!

This is going to take a long time,
And i wonder what's mine,
Can't take no more!
I wonder if You'll understand,
It's The Touch of Your hand,
That will make me stand!

And all i need is The love You give,
All i need for another day,
And all i ever knew,
ONLY YOU!

Necessito lo que tu me das
Necessito verte un dia mas
Y solo pienso en ti
SOLO EN TI!

Widuri

Widuri elok bagai rembulan,sayang..

Widuri indah bagai lukisan...

Widuri bukalah pintu hati untuk ku..

Widuri ku akan menyayangi....

P/S: i love this song too mumy

Fuck Russians!

Yes,exactly! i always come to u when i have something to pour out,something im furious about but can't do anything.Here it goes...

i was walking at Ulitsa Jukova yesterday around 2 o'clock going to lecture.I have my mp3 on and walking very fast.Then there came 4 guys from the opposite side,normal pedastrians with sling bags.They walked passed me when suddenly one of them stretched out his hand and pull my hijab.i couldnt make out exactly what he said coz my mp3 was on plus i have this sound isolation earphone but i bet he must have said something insulting either to me or to the hijab i wear.Then all of them laughed as if that is the funniest joke they just seen and waiting for my reaction.

My impulse was to kick him.But i didnt.Why?Becoz i was alone at that time,and this fucking country is not my country so even if this case is brought to court i will surely lose and also bcoz they are 2 times my size and height.I bet if i scream for help no one would have come to my rescue.So i walked away.

It took 2 min after that for tears to rain,after my brain starts functioning again,after what have been a sudden shocking jolt.

Ok before this i faced alot of things of this kind-insults,flirts,giggles,unwanted stares etc.But they were all verbal.Mean as they are i still can bear them.But this??

At that moment i realised how fragile and helpless i am as a woman(though i never admit it or give so much thought about it) when faced with this kind of situation.At that moment i felt a strong overwhelming need to be protected by a man.I have never felt this need before.....if only i have a man  that i can run to at that very moment and cry on his shoulder.He would hug me protectively and say "it's ok darling,im here with u" (and secretly arrange for those motherfuckers to be brought to hell)

But the truth is that,im all alone and feeling totally wrecked after what happened.I sobbed all the way to lecture.

Banyuwangi

Next is banyuwangi...

Batik house

Printed batik

Drawing batik

Printed batik

Printed batik

making batik

Tamarind? im not sure but it was found along the way to batik village

In the afternoon we departed to Ijen.

Syaki "welcome to Ijen"

Dusk

In tent

sunset

Waterfall running down

to be continued..........

Trip to Bandung

After spending about 2 nights in Jakarta we moved to our next destination-Bandung.It is a good place for shopping.Clothes which cost rm 300 in Malaysia are sold for rm50 here.I bought a few for myself..thank god my ATM card was spoiled.

Rice with beef  soup.I had this for breakfast.Actually i noticed that soupy meals are common in Indonesia but in Malaysia it would be considered as unsual if someone is to have something hot and soupy for breakfast,for Malay i mean...but i know it is normal for Chinese in M'sia.Oh and one more thing,beansprouts will always present in soups here.Always.

This is called ice-cream potong(cut).I guess it's because it was made in a big block at first and later on cut into smaller pieces,which gives the name.I had it after the hot soup to cool myself down.It's red bean flavour and it's yummy!

After that off we go.It took about 6 hours from Jakarta to Bandung by a four-wheel drive.We reached there at noon,then did some shopping till evening.Then took a night train to Solo.

Two bored girls at the train station in Bandung...

We reached Solo in the morning.As Solo is near to Borobudur we took the chance to visit the place.

When i was in Form 5 learned bout the ancient religions in the world and one of it is Buddhism.It never crossed my mind that one day i would have the oppurtunity to visit this temple.

                                                                        Happy ribena kid

Erm...do u believe if i said that this temple was made using egg whites to join the pieces of  bricks together? I don't too but that was what Nana my Indonesian friend told me...

Inside every bell-like dome seen there,sits a Buddha statue.According to the locals,your wish will come true if u touch Buddha wholly with your hand through the holes.I didnt,though i had many to wish for....

                                                                        
 Whoever they are,this people must have had a strong will and high determination to complete this.Imagining myself carrying all the bricks,climb to the top of this hill and then start to arrange them together..hurm.....

This is what we were waiting for....It was really a breathtaking view to see a sunset from the top of this temple

 I have a high respect for Buddha and his teachings but im glad that i've found my Creator,alhamdulillah...


to be continued......