Love oh love!

I believe all girls at least once in their lifetime dreamed of finding their true love or the prince charming.Me too.I had that when i was young.

As a teenage girl i wasnt the rebellious type,or the one who always have boys around them.I was a good girl.The one who obeys rules in school,good with all my teachers and well-liked by my friends.And eventhough i dont really listen to my mom,i never make her worry too much.I never run away from home or involove in drugs or get myself pregnant.And i was good with my studies too.In fact i was among the top students in my school.

Where were we?....Love.Oh yep, I never rush into this matter of love because i always believe that one day it will come.I never involve myself in love because for me it is complicated,in a sense that if i were to fall in love at that age of 15-16 there's nothing i could do.I mean i can't get married at 15! Besides im the ambituous kind of girl who always have great dreams.Running away with my boyfriend and abandon everything was never in my list of things-to-do eventhough i know to some girls this might appear to be terribly romantic!

Now almost 10 years have passed by since i seriously give love a thought.

And here i am in Volgograd.Im doing medicine.I can speak Russian fairly well,i've travelled to places that i dreamed of going to and in less than a year im going to be a doctor.Great isnt it? Everything that i've been dreaming for are now in my hands.But...where is the love that i've been waititng for?

The other day i was talking to Fatin.Nothing serious,just like one of the many conversations u too probably had with your sister or cousin or niece.She told me she wants to be a gynecologist.Since we are both doing medicine we understand that being  gynecologist is a tough job.It consumes most of your time and at the end of the day u are all exhausted and hardly have time for anything else.So i asked her,are u serious?What about your future children? Who will take care of them? Then she said well honestly i dont think im gona get married.And i asked her what makes her think so and she said "because now i realise that it's not easy to find a guy that i like".And i said erm...(means 'yes' in a deep-thought-way).

Another conversation of the same kind i had with Kak Eda years ago.She told me she watched a documentary filmed at an old folks' home.One of the reporters interviewed an old lady.Said she seems happy.She showed what's inside her cupboard.Its filled with juices,delicious biscuits and chocolates, and souveniors she has from her previous travels.Said she's there at the old folks' home by choice.She's not married and has no children.Hurm,maybe i should consider this?

Oh,and this one is a song by sammy yusuf.It's one of my favourites.Actually at first i was thinking of another song that i like which is more relevant to this topic of love,but when i checked out the clip i decided that i dont like it at all.Not my type.Suddenly it hit me that Allah is all about love too,in fact it is the greatest love of all.So here it is,Asma Allah by Sammy Yusuf! =)